#274 - So this is Christmas...
It's less than two weeks out from Christmas, and I'm feeling far from "Merry". This is the first time in a number of years that I've felt completely "Bah, Humbug!" I think it's a combination of things that are getting me down.
Personal Issues
Those of you who have access to the "SP" posts know of what I speak. Without going into too much detail, I'm suffering relationship worries on all fronts. Personal, professional, and uhh, I guess those two fronts really. Work has been a bear because I'm now involved with new PC deployment on top of Help Desk duties and all the other crazy stuff I do.
Karate has been a little stressful as of late because of the rank testing, but I'm thinking that 2 weeks off from class will cure what ails me there. In my personal life, I'm going through a lot of changes. Not the "boy becoming a man changes". I already have hair in those areas, it's just turning grey now. No, I'm going through a much more stressful ordeal. I'll announce it publicly when the time is right. And, no, I'm not gay. Jeez! You people...
Financial Issues
I know. Cry you a river. Everyone is having that right now. Well, some of these issues are because of the previously mentioned issues and if I told you about it right now your head might explode.
Rebelling against conformity
This is the time of year when everyone tells you to put on a smile and have a song in your heart. I don't feel like it. It just so happens that I'm having a rough time this year and everyone labelling me a "Scrooge" or a "Grinch" (TM) is doing nothing but piss me off even more. Deep down, I know I have a lot to be thankful for and I appreciate those things, but I'll be damned if I'm going to have the Consumer Culture of this country tell me to "Cowboy up and pony on down the road." Especially, since the motto of the day is "no one is responsible for anything bad, but everyone gets credit for whatever is good." Frak that noize! I'm so adamant about this I spelled noise with a "z" 'cause I'm street like that!
I've got numb times a comin'
This isn't going to sound good, so I'll admit that it probably isn't good. My holiday plans involve me spending most of my time hammered. I'm going to the licquor store tonight to stock up and prepare for a 5 day bender. Don't worry, I won't be driving anywhere whilst intoxicated, but I can assure you that I will NOT be drinking responsibly. I'm not planning on taking a trip to pukey town, but I am going to have a bucket handy.
I know that this is probably my first steps to becoming an alchoholic, but I really don't care anymore. I've run the straight and narrow for quite a while now. I think it's time for me to branch out and do what's wrong for a change.
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Comments
If you're going to go on a five day bender, then I think it's appropriate for you to not do it alone. I think we are going to have a get together New Years Eve; you should join us. We have plenty of places for you to sleep. My alcoholic intake is going to drastically reduce (well, it has, but it will even more), I think you should take advantage of the over-the-top drinking Hangtime while you can.
Also, how'd the other thing turn out?
Thanks for the invite, but the bender begins at 17:00, Tuesday, Dec. 23, 2008 and ends promptly on Saturday, Dec. 27, 2008 at 20:00. I think this gives me all of the 28th to sleep/recover so that I can be sober for work on the 29th. My plan is pretty simple. I'll have drink until I'm a little buzzed and then stop drinking, let the buzz wear off and then drink again. That way I won't overdo it and get my ticket punched to Pukey Town, U.S.A.
I'll probably play XBox during as I come down off the buzz. The point is that the second I don't feel buzzed, I'm going to drink. I'll planning on spending the evening at home New Year's eve because I'll have been working all that day and then only have the next day off. I actually have to work on Saturday the 3rd. I might drink a little bit to help me get to sleep, but I'll be spending New Year's day just basically taking it easy.
I don't really care if I'm by myself because I'm just going to have to get used to it anyway. Also, with my current state of mind, I'm better off being alone when I'm drunk because I'm liable to grope folks who ought not be groped. Both you and BabySteps are in this category because in my mind I like to imagine that you like to cuddle after a vigorous groping session and more than anything, I need someone to hold me in their arms and tell me everything is gonna be alright.
One request though: don't go too far down the road to destruction (even if Sweet Tooth tells you it'll be fun). You've got people who care about you and who don't want to see you come to any harm (emotional or physical).
She's going out of town.
Oh, Mr. Picklez! I'm sad to hear of your grinchy mood. I want you to know that you put a smile on my face whenever you post.
I do think that you're not alone in your mood. This year feels weird to me too.
Re: The Great Bender of Late '08...
DON'T:
- drink and play Wii
- consume too much sugar or caffeine with your booze
- drink and dial
- be too reflective, look forward
DO:
- drink and post
- spend time with like minded drinkers
- eat eat eat
- think of all the awesomeness in your life
Good day Mr. Picklez
Actually, I think it would be weird if you got X-mas off in Japan. Mainly, because it wasn't a nation founded on Christianity.
BTW, it's the Path to Destruction (TM) and the Road to Degradation (C). Don't worry, I'll be fine. In fact, I'm hoping this little journey will take me about 5.5 miles towards the edge. I'm not brave enough to lean up against the fence so I'll sit in a parking lot a few miles away and go to the gift shop and look at Postcards from the Edge.
I also want to add a DO: stay on the Path of Degradation (c) and stay away from the Path of Destruction (tm)